I don't always know what to do - MODUS OPERANDI

It seems that when I am on my own - the motivation to do

much of anything seems to be absent. I can question that

thought and phrase though. I am usually busy taking care of myself and my life

and my family and friends.. I do like taking walks at times too.. I think

it's probably magnified by the pandemic isolation-bubble life...

I guess that's all I am really wondering about.. I like the quiet life - it's a kind of

pastoral thing at moments - but 

that and the role of work in my life I am starting to question as observed by my doc

...I think to myself should it be a passion? should it be high powered

and stressful? Should I accept it? or is it just

something I go to - that isn't very stressful -  and after I get it done,

I can come home to my quiet home life and not worry about much else than taking care of my life

... I try and motivate at times to do my art and design

that I used to when I was younger - but I find so much of my mojo M.O. is stuck in it's gear box ..

I may do some of art again some day... I think I am just making peace

with some things...I wish I could better express it...but as for now- the role

of work in my life - and how I live my life are on my mind....those things

as a source of identity... anyways - things are good.

thanks and 

sending peace.

Mark