I'd like to get help

Roar!!! IDK what to do. I would get help if I had the money to. I'm paying for other things and have no left over money because the current job I have doesn't pay me shit. I'd get more hours  to get more money, but it's not even worth it. So, I'm just tryin to find a better job. Even that is a struggle because this area sucks. There aren't really alot of opportunities for anything. That's why most people move away from this place after high school. I plan on moving away from this place within the next 4 years. 
Anyway, I wish I had the money to get help. I barely have the money to pay off stuff. I know I need to get help and see a therapist. And I would like to, I just can't. 
I just feel like I should stop talking to people and just be by myself again. I just don't feel like explaining things and having people not understand. Like, people I'm close to. I'm just tired of being shot down by closed minded people. I'm trying to trust people, but it's difficult when I feel horrible most of the time. 
This horrible feeling just randomly happens and idk why. If I knew the problem then I'd be alright. But, it just happens out of nowhere and just makes me horribly depressed. To the point where I just want to curl up and cry all damn day and not do anything else. It's so terrible because I'm a really happy person. But, I feel like I can't be happy when I want to no matter how much I try.