I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

The days seem so long because I can't sleep and when i do i can never get up. all i do is cry and I dont know how t stop. the pain i feel hurts so damn bad. its like all I dont is hurt no matter how many happy faces i put in inside i feel like cry. i just want it to stop and i dont care how it stops right now just need it to stop. I so wish that i finally go to sleep and stay sleep forever. I know i haven't been the perfect person but no one deseerves to hurt as much as i do. I cant let go of the hurt from when i was a little and everything since then just piled on. every day i hope for happiness and stress free days but its always somethng. i need to be rescued because i have no idea if i can take this anymore. I never begged before in my life but right now i'm begging someone to help me save me from life and myself.