I became what they said I was.
I never knew my dad, the times I ever asked, mom beat me up and told me to shut up. She did have a few b/f's, guess they were father figures. They were always guys we knew from church and most treated me good. I have lots of blank spots trying to remember being a little kid. I remember I was like 4 and I ran from the bathroom to my room. I was naked. She beat me up, said I was a nasty slut and never do that again. Weird cuz I used to take baths and showers with her b/f and she always thought it was cute. Even when they would come in and sleep with me, it was cute. When they did sex things, it was ok, they were teaching about love and sex. Yet if I ever said a boy was cute, or if I was asked out or if a boy ever called, even for homework help, she would call me slut, whore, useless pig and beat me up.
More later...I'm getting myself stressed
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thats horrible.!!!
i think this girl I like was touched by her dad when she was a kid.
I knew her dad.
Not %100 sure if it did happen, but apparently her dad was into Kiidy porn, so i'm putting 2 and 2 together.
I'm trying to be there for as a friend, but it can be hard(pardon the pun.lol) because she can get supper flirtatious. and I haven't been with a women for ages. I cant go there with her. I've been sexualizing women since puberty pretty much. Its an addiction. I don't like it. the emptiness.
thank you for sharing your story Bec
I was in 8th grade and my b/f was a junior in high school. We knew each other from church, so mom was cool with us hanging out. She didnt know what all we were doing. He would record me doing things with him, or me masturbating, even recorded me kissing another girl. All summer, we were having fun, I started high school, he was a senior, he showed the bishop of our church some of the recordings. I was kicked out of the church, no one would talk to me or help me, my mom beat me up and kicked me out of the house. Mom and the bishop said I was evil and trying to ruin a wonderful young man, trying to destroy his life and this girl I kissed, I was just evil. After getting beat up, mom threw me out of the house...been on my own ever since.
I feel your pain, and sorry for your hurt.
stay with a church, a good church will not turn on you.
I am sorry your Mother was a terrible Mom. My mother never treated me like that and my wife's mother never treated anyone like that.
I left my house at the age of 19. Came back home at the age of 21. Left again at the age of 22 for a few years. I got out on my own permanently after I married at the age of 26.