I AM VERTICAL...LOL
MY HONEY HOLDING UP FLEX, A 300 LB DOLPHIN. HE HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME BUT I REALLY HAD TO TALK HIM INTO IT.
WELL, TODAY IS THE 3 WEEK ANNIVERSARY OF MY DAUGHTER'S TEMPER TANTRUM. THAT WAS THE BEGINNING OF MY SEVERE DROP. OF COURSE, I HAD BEEN SUFFERINGÂ MILD STRESS FOR ABOUT 3 WEEEKS BEFORE THIS. THAT EVENT JUST SHOVED ME OFF THE LEDGE. I HAVE BEEN GRAPPLING FOR A HAND HOLD EVER SINCE.
SHE HAS SENT ME ONE EMAIL AND I DID NOT RESPOND TO IT. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG I WILL HAVE TO HAVE HER OUT OF MY LIFE BUT IT NEEDS TO BE THE SITUATION RIGHT NOW. MY GIRLFRIEND SAYS IT'S LIKE I AM GRIEVING A DEATH WITH ALL THE STAGES.
I HAVE BEEN OUT OF THE HOUSE ABOUT 5 TIMES IN 3 WEEKS. ALL OF THESE OUTTINGS WERE SHORT. I DUG OUT MY RUG HOOKING MATERIALS YESTERDAY. I HAVE NOT TOUCHED THEM IN MONTHS. I HAVE ONE SMALLER PIECE THAT IS BETTER THAN HALF DONE. I DECIDED TO CHANGE THE SCENE INTO A NORTHERN SUNSET. I THINK I WILL GIVE IT TO DAVID. HE SPENT MANY YEARS TEACHING UP NORTH. THIS WILL GIVE ME THE INCENTIVE TO WORK ON IT. HOWEVER, I WILL NOT MAKE IT A CHORE. IT IS A HOBBY AND IT SHOULD BE RELAXING AND ENJOYED.
TONIGHT IS SUPPOSE TO BE COFFEE NIGHT WITH THE GALS. I SURE HOPE I CAN GET THERE AS I MISSED THE LAST ONE. POSITIVE THINKING IS DEFINITELY REQUIRED!!!
WELL, I AM UP OUT OF BED AND I THINK I WILL MAKE THE BED AND CLEAN THE ROOM SO IT FEELS FRESH. I MAY EVEN OPEN THE WINDOW A TAD. YESTERDAY, AS I SAT AT MY OFFICE WINDOW, 2 BLUEJAYS LANDED ON THE VINE OUTSIDE AND WERE PECKING OFF THE OLD BERRIES. IT REMINDED ME THAT SPRING WILL SOON BE HERE. REALLY KNOW IT TODAY AS THE TIME CHANGED LAST NIGHT.
BE WELL. DEBBIE
WELL, TODAY IS THE 3 WEEK ANNIVERSARY OF MY DAUGHTER'S TEMPER TANTRUM. THAT WAS THE BEGINNING OF MY SEVERE DROP. OF COURSE, I HAD BEEN SUFFERINGÂ MILD STRESS FOR ABOUT 3 WEEEKS BEFORE THIS. THAT EVENT JUST SHOVED ME OFF THE LEDGE. I HAVE BEEN GRAPPLING FOR A HAND HOLD EVER SINCE.
SHE HAS SENT ME ONE EMAIL AND I DID NOT RESPOND TO IT. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG I WILL HAVE TO HAVE HER OUT OF MY LIFE BUT IT NEEDS TO BE THE SITUATION RIGHT NOW. MY GIRLFRIEND SAYS IT'S LIKE I AM GRIEVING A DEATH WITH ALL THE STAGES.
I HAVE BEEN OUT OF THE HOUSE ABOUT 5 TIMES IN 3 WEEKS. ALL OF THESE OUTTINGS WERE SHORT. I DUG OUT MY RUG HOOKING MATERIALS YESTERDAY. I HAVE NOT TOUCHED THEM IN MONTHS. I HAVE ONE SMALLER PIECE THAT IS BETTER THAN HALF DONE. I DECIDED TO CHANGE THE SCENE INTO A NORTHERN SUNSET. I THINK I WILL GIVE IT TO DAVID. HE SPENT MANY YEARS TEACHING UP NORTH. THIS WILL GIVE ME THE INCENTIVE TO WORK ON IT. HOWEVER, I WILL NOT MAKE IT A CHORE. IT IS A HOBBY AND IT SHOULD BE RELAXING AND ENJOYED.
TONIGHT IS SUPPOSE TO BE COFFEE NIGHT WITH THE GALS. I SURE HOPE I CAN GET THERE AS I MISSED THE LAST ONE. POSITIVE THINKING IS DEFINITELY REQUIRED!!!
WELL, I AM UP OUT OF BED AND I THINK I WILL MAKE THE BED AND CLEAN THE ROOM SO IT FEELS FRESH. I MAY EVEN OPEN THE WINDOW A TAD. YESTERDAY, AS I SAT AT MY OFFICE WINDOW, 2 BLUEJAYS LANDED ON THE VINE OUTSIDE AND WERE PECKING OFF THE OLD BERRIES. IT REMINDED ME THAT SPRING WILL SOON BE HERE. REALLY KNOW IT TODAY AS THE TIME CHANGED LAST NIGHT.
BE WELL. DEBBIE
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I saw a robin back from down south yesterday! I am thrilled that spring is almost here. Don\'t let your kid get you down. force yourself to get out, once you are out of the house you will feel better. The hard part is the \"getting out\", not the \"being out\". Motivate, Deb, motivate!
Love you, and I know you can bounce back, and I know I am not wrong!!!!! :-)
Susanne
PS love the picture of your husband and the dolphin....he DOES look like he is having fun.
thank god spring is right around the corner.. it cant get here soon enough for me.. sorry you are still suffering from that blowout from your daughter. she is a major trigger for you.. getting out of the house would probaly help you feel better and getting together with your friends would help..i know how much you enjoy seeing them.. feel better soon..Debbie.. hugs ..marie
Some times it is very hard to make self protection over ride the \"mother\" instinct which can let our children ride roughshod over us but when having them in your life is as detrimental to health and wellbeing as your daughter is to yours you just have to bite the bullit and make the choice for health and life and let her get on with her own business.
I had to do that with my middle daughter and there was a period of over five years when I did not talk to her at all. She has been back in my life, from a distance, since a year or two before Katrina hit but still on a limited basis and she knows that she is only there as long as she keeps herself out of trouble and does not cause me any grief.
The older I get the easier it is becoming to let go of those who can \"make me nuts\". I know that stress kills, I\'ve already lived longer then my parents or grandparents and I am in no way ready to throw in the towel now so even though it may seem selfish at times I put my own well being first. If I don\'t have it I don\'t have anything to give to others either.
Hope that spring finds its way into your heart and lightens your spirit. Hugs.