I am trying something different
I am having a hard time today - I didn't do my work as I would have liked it to be - though I still did an ok job - I asked a coworker to catch an order for me right at the end of my shift - and I feel like it wasn't cool - but I didn't have a pen - I lost mine and my shift was over.
I left work and the craziness of the national news got to me - and then I came home my head full of anxiety. I ate a quick lunch. I feel ill at ease but I think maybe a lot of people feel this way at times.
I am trying to focus on acceptance of the dynamic in my life - like my day has an energy to it and a sportive nature - rather than feeling or taking the perspective that I have to be sublimely restful and at peace. Maybe I will turn on a movie or maybe I will read a book. Not really what I want but it's worth 'a go.' It's all so weird.
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all I am feeling is pain and I need to get organized and do something with my day. My feelings are
bigger than my intellect ...maybe if I think about what the meditation class talks about it will help.
Give me some structure, give me some emotional intelligence and maybe then I can do something with my day.