I AM TIRED OF THIS!

Sat. Night:  I am so tired of this!  Living, but not.  Just doing time.  I don't want to be here anymore.  Even with family that loves me.  I am tired of the pain.  I am tired of trying to explain myself.  I am tired of going through the motions.  I am tired of putting one foot in front of the other.  I am tired of sleeping when I shouldn't.  I am tired of not sleeping when I should.  I am tired of financial worries.  I am tired of getting sick.  I am tired of crying.  I am tired of trying to find a way to feel better.  I am just TIRED!