I am still a person...always was and always will be
Just because I lost your Dad that does not make me less of a person. If he were here, you sure as hell would NOT be taking me for granted.You never think of me alone at home.You're so busy with your social life, you never think that maybe I might like to spend an evening or afternoon with you, just talking. Instead, you head off to where ever, and when I call your cell, I find out you've spent hours just sitting and chatting with the baby's grandmother (who just happens to be my age too), so why am I not as interesting as she is to be a choice on your list? You don't care what I have to say. You say, "I love you" so often that it honestly starts to lose its meaning. It's just automatic. There's really no feeling behind it.I'm just a convenient babysitter when you need one.Sure, you love me, but you don't put any actions behind the words. When did it come to this point where I can't even stand you in my house any more? I just want you gone.You're an inconsiderate slob. I know you miss him, and I know that watching him die...twice, really...was very hard for you, but if you are having trouble coping...get help. Talk to me, for crying out loud.Just because I'm in pain doesn't mean that I can't see beyond it to help you through it, too. I'm still as valuable a person as I was when I was a spouse. "Widow" doesn't mean second class.
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This is so right. My kids are going through pain and I am glad they are there for me at this time. However they cannot get along therefore my son moved to my sister for a couple of days and is asking me to have his sister move out. I love both of my kids and I cannot put anyone out of their dad\'s house. My daughter said that she is moving out in two weeks back to her place. I wish she would stay with me but I think that she needs her own space and she also has a character that is hard to get along. I love her and her dad loved her too and would want her to stay home until she can manage on her own. She is out of a job and is staying in a room of one of the house that we own. She got into an accident and total her car. We had put down the downpayment for the car and her dad refused that I do it again. Eventhough he is now gone I have to respect what he wanted me to do. I love him and miss him so much. I think that he left me here all alone and now I don\'t know what to do. I love him and this pain is so great. I miss him amd this life seesm useless without him. I love him and need him.