I am so lost right now

I am at the point that I dont know if I am coming or going half the time. I am trying to do my best with everything that is going on right now around me with the long drive everyday and having to find things to do all day while i wait for my son to get out of school or till something opens up in the morning so we have something to do till we have an appt or something else. Its been hard on us all trying toget things in order and taken care of right now but i feel that i am trying my best. But I dont know what else everyone wants me to do at this point. I just want to give up right now too. 

I was told last night by my bf that he doesnt feel like that house is his anymore. So i took that as he is not happy with me and the kids there like he is saying. so i am going to go and try to get housing through MHA and that way i am out of his place and he can have his own place back and feel like its his again. It hurts and i am not going to lie about about that either. I cried and he acted like its nothing but when you tell me that and then i see you looking at houses online and then show me a link to a house for no credit or bad credit, it makes me feel like you want us out of there and i am going to do that so that you are happy and have what you want. so i am going to do what i have to do and move again even though i dont want to and really cant afford it but it looks like its what i have to do right now. it breaks my heart in hearing this but i dont know what he wants me to do. i feel like its my fault for all of that is happening. like i just should have stayed in my room at moms kept me and my kids away from everyone and stayed at the library all day long and maybe i could have been living there still till i had something else more better worked out since he is showing/telling me how he feels about it all right now and it is killing me on the inside. what the hel am i suppose to do???