I am learning to let go of Smokey which is not easy

I am trying to learn how to let go of Smokey, which is not easy.  Since Smokey's death on Nov. 15, 2009, I have held Smokey so dear to my heart that I have not made room to let anyone else into my heart.  The other day I talked to Smokey saying it was time to let go of you because you are dead.  I told Smokey he always told me to be happy and fine someone else again.  I said in order to do that I have to let go of you.  I have held on to Smokey because I am afraid of finding someone else in my life.  I want to keep Smokey in my heart but at the same time be open to finding someone else.  I have no room in my heart for someone else until I let go of Smokey.  It makes perfect sense but it is extremely hard to do as Smokey was my soul mate.  It is not easy letting go of your soul mate.  Smokey never believed in soul mates but I did.  Smokey never believed in astrological compatibility but I did.  Smokey did not share my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, but I do.  My faith is what has kept me together this far.  It is a hard journey to be on and I would not recommend it to anyone.  It is one of the hardest thing I did is have Smokey die.  The other hard thing is letting go of Smokey so I can have a new future.  Not everyone agrees with me, which is okay.  We all have different paths to walk and they are not the same for all of us.  There is a bright hope for a different life for each one of us.  It is just my opinion but I thought I would share it with all of you from Diane