I AM HOT! (AS IN TEMP, NOT LOOKS)

Wed. Night, Late:  Holy Cow!....it is so hot and humid!  I really shouldn't complain too much 'cause I really hate the cold.  But, this humidity is crazy!  I can't stay dry! Of course, I have been really busy cleaning up from camping.  I have been doing laundry like crazy and have to keep going in and out of the camper.  It is REALLY hot in there!  The dog is gone, I am pretty sure.  I don't even know what happened.  POOF!  It is kind of strange he just appeared and then disappeared a week later. I can't say I will miss him except for the warning bark of someone pulling in the drive.  I am still cleaning up his messes!  I wish I had taken a photo of my mulched area before he came.  It was sooo pretty.  It is still nice but not like it was.  I have lots of plants/flowers in pots in that area.  I don't have to weed that way and it looks nice. And, I wish I had taken a picture of him.  Oh well, compared to other things in my life, it is nothing.  And, compared to losing Scott, it is less than nothing!  I keep myself in check that way, comparing any annoyance to losing my son.  I find that nothing is really very important except my family. I spent some time in the pool today.  It was a good day for it.  Most of the time was spent cleaning it, but that is relaxing to me, too. Tomorrow/today, it will be nice and clean and still be really hot out.  I intend to float around and work on my tan.  I am getting pretty dark.  I like that 'cause as a friend once told me...."Tanned fat looks better than un-tanned fat." (The cellulite isn't quite as obvious)  lol I think I am coming out of my very looooong slump.  At least for now.  I am still really depressed and sad, but not the way I have been.  I am really trying!   I even managed to watch a whole DVD movie tonight.  It was pretty sad in many ways, though. "We Own The Night".  Drug dealers, death, etc.  But in the end the dealer got his due and the guy turned his life around.  It just made me think of Scott. I got an invitation, from an ex boss, to a poetry reading from two of the authors books.  It is the 29th of July.  I think I will try to go.   I haven't seen him for quite some time.  He was the editor of our small town paper several years ago.  I was the office manager and wrote many things.  I really enjoyed that job.  Then, the paper sold, I bought a liquor store (now sold) and haven't written much since.  Larry, the ex boss, and I, got along very well.  Now he is a teacher at our local community college.  Anyway, he is friends with the poet and it will be at a really cool coffee house, so I may go.  I don't know if Craig will go with me or not.  Writing, poetry, etc., is really not his thing.  I will invite Chris, too. It is much more his thing.  But, I think he is "mad" at me. Yes, Chris is annoyed, mad, whatever you want to call it, with me.  I think.  I think I gave him a little bit too much of a "hard time" about meeting this new girl.  I was just teasing him but apparently he didn't find it amusing.  I just really want him to go on a date, have fun, etc.  So, I have butted out.  I didn't mean to bother him.  Maybe he is just more serious about this than I thought.  So, he has not talked to me, or emailed, since last week.  I did leave a voice mail to let him know we were home and he called back and talked to Adam but that is all.  I was outside at the time.  We are like this sometimes....very close and then very distant.  I think it is the moon or something because it has always been this way.  Or, maybe it is just me annoying my son.  I do it with the best of intention.  Ah, well.... Ramble, ramble, ramble....Guess I should get to bed.  It is a little after 2 a.m. here.  Sleep does not come easily to me.