I am having more bad days that good

It has been a month since we lost our son, Hunter. I can not break out of this funk I am in. I am just sad all the time. My husband wants me to get better, however I don't know how. I still just can not believe that this is my reality and that I lost my baby boy. I have been through a lot of adversity in my life, however this one has definitely brought me down to my knees. I have NO idea how to get up and walk again from here. My heart aches everyday for Hunter and I cry everyday for his loss. I don’t know if I will ever recover from this. I just feel so empty inside. I keep thinking about all of the things I will never have with him…The sound of his cries, to know the color of his eyes, to feel the tenderness of his hug, how he would sound when he began to talk, or how it would feel to hold him all night while he sleeps….I just don’t know how to get over this loss. I wish I could see that sunlight and peace, however I think it is going to take a very long time for me to get through this. I am NEVER going to be the same! My husband keeps saying we will try again, however truly I don’t know if I could ever make it through another loss like this. I told my husband that I will consider trying again, however if we loss another child he will be burying us both. I do not wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy! My boy is gone and I was completely powerless to control this situation. Everyday, I wish it would have been me and not Hunter. Don't feel like I am ever going to be able to feel my heartbeat again without that continuous ache.