I Am Gonna Try This Again...
I am gioing to try and see if I can write this journal and see if that mean man will respond. If he does, then this will be it...Last I had another BAD episode. As some of you may very well know. I havent tried to commit suicide since January 2006, but last night, I believe I tried it once again. I cut my wrist and I got a good vein. I watched it bleed for sometime and then I cleaned it up and bandaged it and then put on my wrist brace to keep pressure on it. It looks ok today so it will be ok. I am glad that I did not die. Some of you, my friends helped me out so much and then proceeded to actually pray for me and with all your help and prayers I pulled through this and made it. To those people, I thank you.Yesterday, I was reading my sister's autopsy report and I know it wasn't the smartest thing to do but I did it anyway. Sometinmes it just seems like yesterday that it happened instead of almost 2 years. It is so hard. Well, I guess that is all I can ay for now. Thanks for letting me vent...
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Don\'t let \"that mean man\" control your actions, Jeanne. So what if he responds. Consider the source and ignore him if he does. Don\'t let *anyone* ever have that level of control over you. Unless, of course, you just really don\'t want to write any more journals and are just looking for an excuse. Blessings.
Honey listen to Shevie, he posesses one of the most beautiful souls I have had the pleasure of knowing and his concern is genuine. Forget about the jerk that tried his best to take you down. He doesn\'t even deserve a second thought. You have moved on to a far better class of friends than he ever was to you. Sometimes we have to deal with pure evil to understand that we don\'t want or need to invite creeps like that into our lives. Jeanne jerks like that will prey on you ONLY IF YOU LET THEM so blow him off with a kiss and a prayer and let your incredible soul shine through!!!
Thank you Shevie and LY. It is a great source of release to write my journal.
I can\'t agree more Jeanne. I\'ve always said consider the source. If this is a person you do not love or respect, then forget him. He\'s not important to you. You have alot of friends here who DO support you. That\'s what you need to focus on, ok? Keep your chin up and keep journaling! Hugs to you.
Jeanne- I\'m glad you\'re ok. I hope you know how many people here really care about your and your well-being. Think about those people and not someone who brings you down. I know youre a strong person, don\'t let one person have that much power over you... you just focus on being well, staying smober, taking care of yourself and your loved ones and I say \"F*** it to the rest!!!\"\".....
Prayers sent.
Jeanne I am here if you ever want to message me I am so sorry to hear about last night but I was having one of those nights as well but did not try agian! You must be in such pain and I just wish that I could take that from you! Remember you are loved by many and message me if you want - would love to hear from you!
Brandon
Thousands of Hugs
we do care about you Jeanne and hate to see one person\'s ignorance push you away from this wonderful group of friends. Venting through journalling really helps. We are all in this together and gather our strength from each other. Please take care of yourself and stay strong...
Sending you prayers Jeanne, you are a very lovely person.
Your in my prayers. Who is the mean man, if I may ask?
oh im so glad you tried the journaling again! its a great source of venting if you ask me and im so gald you are doing it. we love you jeanne! hang in there sweetie!!
Well for those who do not know... He goes by Dave1611. He says he is an evangelist and I thought he was my friend. I wrote in my journals and he wrote some pretty rude remarks to me about the world not oweing me a living and that I didnt need my sisters kid if she was such a burden to me. That I did not deserve her because I was cutting myself. That I needed to grow up and quit trying to get attention. He was very hurtful and he started spouting out bible verses about my loveless marriage and how I should be kissing my husbands feet instead of complaining. All I said in that area was that I would babysit to try to get extra $$$ to get my meds and my hubby would demand cigarettes and I would do without meds again. Anyway he really hurt my feelings and was not nice. My niece is not a burden to me it is just different because i have never had kids myself and it is very challenging for me so I would ask for advice. Thats the story for those of you who do not know ....
I am so sorry you\'ve had to deal with Dave\'s brand of help. I\'ve had my go around with him and his wife, as well. They spout hatred and judgement in the cloak of Christianity. This is a support website and I hope you reported his non-supportive statements to the powers that be.
He had no right to tell you the things he did...hopefully he stays away. Blessings for you and prayers sent.
Sweetie Don\'t Let People Like That Make you Feel Bad hes that way because hes not happy in his Own Life!!!!!God will protect you and Heal your want to die or try and hurt your Self and I Pray this Right now and every Christian on here Right now Agree with me that This sweet child be Healed and Thank you Jesus Amen!!!!! God says we are not to Judge anyone or we to will be Judged and as for the Man that had not nice things to say well God will take care of him because the Bible tells us not to worry about people that talk us down or say mean and hateful things just remember that God Sends his Angels to walk with us every day sweetie and he sure sent one to you on that day I\'m Leigh and I\'m A Christian and Proud to call you a friend Big Hugs and love Leigh,