I am going through some things

 
I have been dealing some things and i am not sure what i am going to do any more. I  am worried about my social anxiety and my anxiety getting the better part of me. I am afraid that I am going to lose the man that I love with all my heart bc of the way that my anxiety comes out, as anger and a temper. I am trying my best to get it under control but I am just feeling so lost at times. I have even had thoughts about doing something to myself bc i dont feel like i am worth it anymore. I just feel so lost and i feel like even through he is my best friend and my man, that i cant talk to him about things and i dont have anyone to talk to anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore.