I am empty and crush; not feeling like a man.

I am empty. In the state of  California, unemployment is bad. I haven't work in 3 years. I been in school but was trying to find work part time. I went to college and finish but I couldn't find any work. I am college educated who would happy  to be a janitor right now.I can't even get a job flipping a dam hamburger. My pride and my self worth is crush. I don't I feel if I can do a job anymore.  I feel like I didn't go to college and spent $65,000 in school loan. My wife is tire of hear me complaining about myself.  She sees that I am unhappy and frustrated about myself and feel bad for me. She says I been giving a bad rep  but tire of being an emotional  punching bad. But she is wore out from all the pep talk of encouraging. All I do is yell and bring up my old success compare to now. I don't mean to take it out on here, She don't deserve it. I just want to work so she don't have to work 2 jobs to keep up afloat.   We are having dumb arguement because me. I am so angry and what the world to fill the way I do. I am unfill and  empty with no purpose.  I know people are having it rough. But I don't know any of these people. All  my peers are doing well with nice income and homes to match there happy disposition.  couldn't even find a fast food job. I am gripped by pain of being out of work. I wake angry at the world. I am moody and mean. I don't want to but just don't know where to turn. I don't drink or do drug but need an escape. I have a wife that have caring us   financially for  years. It hurt me as a man powerless  help her. I was force to go back to school about 2 years ago. I will be finish this semester but we have bills right know. She is working like a dog but all I can tell her that it will be okay. But I don't even really believe.  PLEASE HELP ME; i AM REALLY HURT. ( TEARS )