I am blessed.

With endo, there is so much bad. The pain, the loss of jobs, school time, money, doctors appointments, surgery, hormones, inferility, struggle to concieve, the 2 cents from everyone, the people with no sympathy, the doctors who have no idea, attempting to pay for everything, horrible news from doctors...the list goes on.
 
I like to think amongst all that somehow I am blessed.
Support from my parents,
Unconditional support from my partner,
Support from my close friends (even if they do give their 2 cents worth),
Support from my amazing friends on DS,
Love from all the people above.
 
Jason came in before...
"Bubby, how are you feeling?"
 
I shrugged, ok I suppose given the fact I have my period and Im in pain.
 
"I'm worried about you, I hope I look after you well enough" he looked so worried and sad.
 
I told him he does, more then I deserve, he looks after me so well.
I asked him why he is worried...
 
"Because you're so sick, Im worried I don't look after you well enough, I just want to be able to help you get better, I'm always here for you, I love you".
 
How prevcious is that? I gave him a kiss, told him I love him and that I am always here for him too, no matter what :)
 
He told me he wants to marry me oneday, he wants to be with me forever :)
I am so lucky..everyday he makes me smile and be thankful for everything in life.
I notice he is careful not to say "I want to marry you oneday and have children" - he knows how upset it makes me to think what if I can't. But thats not an issue untill it becomes one. But he is careful in his wording.
 
He's grown up so much lately..He's always been supportive and loving..but I can see him maturing..thinking more of our future..It's nice to have that support and love. I always tell him how thankful I am and how much I love him. I know we're young, but I have a wonderful feeling about this. Not many men at his age would stick by someone like this, they'd much rather be out partying having a blast etc.
Jason has said he could do all that, leave me and go onto that life...but he said "what use would all that be? I love you, I've found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, there's no point in that lifestyle anymore unless I have you in it, unless everyday you're the one by my side, the one I come home to, my partner...so really, there's no option, it's always going to be you".
 
Yes, I am blessed.. through this disease..through all this I am blessed and I think I am much more thankful for it.
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh hun... this made me so happy to read..... Jase is a wonderful man.. and i have no doubts about that because you are sucha special girl who deserves such a beautiful man and you have found him.... cant wait to come to your wedding :) Im glad that even in this pain you have sio much love around you as you give so much to thers.. we love you Tatum xoxox
taters90
taters90

Awww Brooke thankyou! You\'re so wonderful to me!
I love you heaps! :D
xoxoxoxo
deleted_user
deleted_user

This really made me smile! I am so glad you have him in your life!
taters90
taters90

Thanks MommyM8 :D me too!
deleted_user
deleted_user

That was so beautiful, Glad you have support from a loving man
Angelpuss
Angelpuss

Jason must be such a lovely guy. I am so happy you have him in your life and he\'s lucky to have someone as sweet and special as you in his life, too, Tate.
Love and hugs
taters90
taters90

thanks ladies :D :D
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so happy to read a journal entry from someone wise enough to count their blessings. Too often we focus on problem solving and do not enjoy that which goes right. Kudos to you! Your boyfriend is as lucky to have you as you are to have him... and many ladies who were told they \"couldn\'t\" have children, have children. Either way, God has a plan for you. Trust in it.
taters90
taters90

Thanks :D I hope so too and I do trust in it :)