I am at a loss

This is my first journal entry, but I am a returning member of Daily Strength.  I was here back in 2012 overcoming my gastritis.  I have returned with a better digestive health, but with a new need for support.
I lost my job back in 2012.  What was worse was that it was in my career field.  I love my career, I have a passion for it.  But I fear no one can see that.  I have not gained employment since I was laid off back in 2012.  I have lost my unemployment and will lose financially in about a month.  I have tried to get any job at this point, but with no results.
This constant stream of failure has led me to some dark moments in my life.  I was negative, I was depressed, the whole nine.  I never want to go back.  But, most importantly, for both my need and well being, I need employment.