I am an attention seeker..Hate me..
Well I finally lost it last night on the boards. Said I was leaving, swore etc etc etc. I guess, I have just had to much on my plate and got to involved with the threads yesterday and trying to save everyone. How can I save anyone when I am having a hard enough time saving myself? Way to much to handle. A *suicidal* girl put up some very horrific pics and I was trying to make it so not everyone would see them and be triggered. I sent her a page of hugs , begging her to take them down and many pms. She pretty much said if she was kicked off of here for this that she would *end It* and I would be responsible. Now I know I wouldnt be but it did cut me to the bone. Enuf said on that.. I love you guys and would miss you to much if I left. Besides what else could I do at work? LMAO I bought my son a motorcycle. My 19 year old. Its a 2007 Honda Shadow 600. Now I am just freaking out cause I am so afraid he will be killed on the damn thing and then I would never be able to live with myself. He just wanted it so bad and me coming from a shitty poor childhood gave into him. My older son has said the same thing. What if he gets hurt mom? Even though I gave him a Harley last year. So just pray for my son that he is careful and doesnt get hurt.. I dont know what I would do if something happened to my baby teddy bear...Or Ryan... the one who signs my paychecks. Speaking of Ryan, he finally gave Milly her diamond ring.. You should see this ring... almost $13000.00.. I think he needs to start paying his mom better if he has that much money just hanging around.. Hell thats about what I make a year.. lmao.. Ok a little more then that but damn.. I want a raise.... Wow they are engaged and now maybe I can get my own grandkids and not have to fuss so much over Als.. I spoil them rotten.. But I love it and them.. Ok I better get back to work or maybe Ryan will dock my pay... Cant have that.. I love you all and thanks for your support.. I dont know what I would do without you.. Love you more k? Y'Vonne
Replies
Praying for you my special friend. Keep the faith and hang on because life is not about the storms we survive but how we laugh and dance in the rain. I love your dancing bear. It reminds me to not take life so seriously or I might get overwhelmed if I do. God is so much better at handling my problems and I am so thankful for that. Love & Hugs to you my sweet friend
You are the greatest mom in the world! Buying your boys motorcycles! I wish my mom was like that. Hell, I wish I could get help fixing mine right now.....
But you are awesome!
Thank you for thinking about the feelings of your friends. I\'m glad I didn\'t see those pics, a poster wrote a suicidal poem a few days ago that really triggered some memories for me. I\'m glad I have friends who can defuse things like this
love you xxxxx
Wow! I didn\'t realize that you could come across someone like that! It sounds like a very tricky situation! I am glad you decieded to stay here on DS! I guess you can come across people with all kinds of problems! That would be upsetting for me to come across a person with pics like that! Also you sound like a wonderful and great mom! Your boys are lucky to have you as their mom!
I care, Teddy-Bear!
OMG!!!. It took me forever to find a place to answer among all your friends here. You are awesome. You helped me so much yesterday during school. Its people like you that keep me here!
Would u kindly adopt me .. I wud love a 2007 Honda .. what a nice bike .. lol .. I hope ur son took a motorcycle safety course .. they are very good .. I did .. and it helped me a lot .. big hugz 2 u .. Love Ray
alright! you\'re human and got po\'d on the board...sometimes you just gotta let it out. as to the son and the motorcycle, i understand totally how torn you are. my son is getting ready to sell his motorcycle because he doesn\'t really ride it much after his accident...too painful for him, not fear...and i am so glad, but i would never tell him to sell it..i would just continue to grit my teeth everytime he rides it...hugs and puppy kisses
wow, I didn\'t see that trainwreck on the boards; I\'m glad I missed it but sorry you had a wrenching experience. That sucks when people hang their shit on people like that. Beastie did NOT deserve it!
Glad you stayed!!
We all fall into that wanting to save the world thing from time to time...sometimes we can make a difference though...we may not ever know it, but sometimes one little thought we share, can tough another person and make a difference....you are a fantastic person with a lot of love to share...please don\'t ever change that.