I am an attention seeker..Hate me..
Well I finally lost it last night on the boards. Said I was leaving, swore etc etc etc. I guess, I have just had to much on my plate and got to involved with the threads yesterday and trying to save everyone. How can I save anyone when I am having a hard enough time saving myself? Way to much to handle. A *suicidal* girl put up some very horrific pics and I was trying to make it so not everyone would see them and be triggered. I sent her a page of hugs , begging her to take them down and many pms. She pretty much said if she was kicked off of here for this that she would *end It* and I would be responsible. Now I know I wouldnt be but it did cut me to the bone. Enuf said on that.. I love you guys and would miss you to much if I left. Besides what else could I do at work? LMAO I bought my son a motorcycle. My 19 year old. Its a 2007 Honda Shadow 600. Now I am just freaking out cause I am so afraid he will be killed on the damn thing and then I would never be able to live with myself. He just wanted it so bad and me coming from a shitty poor childhood gave into him. My older son has said the same thing. What if he gets hurt mom? Even though I gave him a Harley last year. So just pray for my son that he is careful and doesnt get hurt.. I dont know what I would do if something happened to my baby teddy bear...Or Ryan... the one who signs my paychecks. Speaking of Ryan, he finally gave Milly her diamond ring.. You should see this ring... almost $13000.00.. I think he needs to start paying his mom better if he has that much money just hanging around.. Hell thats about what I make a year.. lmao.. Ok a little more then that but damn.. I want a raise.... Wow they are engaged and now maybe I can get my own grandkids and not have to fuss so much over Als.. I spoil them rotten.. But I love it and them.. Ok I better get back to work or maybe Ryan will dock my pay... Cant have that.. I love you all and thanks for your support.. I dont know what I would do without you.. Love you more k? Y'Vonne
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My Fiancee actually bought the same bike a couple months ago!! I was very worried about him but I have seen him with the bike and he is very knowledgeable. Make sure that he takes some safety classes, uses his helmet and just know all the guidlines, knows about the bike itself. I am sure that he will be fine Y\'Vonne. As far as what happened last night you are not an attention seeker u are one of the most positive and strongest people I have seen on the boards. We all have a breaking point and the last couple of days have been trying and it happens to everyone. *BIG HUGS*
You said it. Remember we aren\'t responsible for others actions. They have their own choices. I love the care and support you give on the boards, but the other person has to choose to take it or not. Try to be grateful for all the people you do help and who do listen. Don\'t be so hard on yourself. You very much appreciated by me. HUGS. Helen
Sweetie, hja is right, we are not responsible for what other people do or don\'t do. I have taken a long break from the boards because I find them upsetting and not very supportive. I tend to stay with my \"groups\" which are so much more supportive, and try to respond to journals. Luv ya. Faith
I want to thank you soooo much for putting up that post warning of those pics. Thanks to you I didn\'t go there, but can only imagine how horrible they truly were. You may have saved someone else from going to a very bad place and that is a great thing. As for the approaching nuptuals....Yay! Some happy, happy days coming your way. Big hUGS to you my new and wonderful friend.
I think you did the right thing as far as the pics just looking out for everyone I am so glad you did not leave.
I so get coming fro a poor childhood. I never had a penny to my name so I buy way yo much for my kids.Just want to make them happy.
so you had a blow out!!! pull over to the side and get out the spare. Anytime you need help fixing that tire you let me know OK?
my friends are so wonderful.. thanks for the caring and suppport..
You know my hero.....I support your efforts last night..I personally think you did the right thing. You are such a caring and loving friend...you just want to help everyone...that is one reason you are my hero!!! You cannot leave without giving me your regular email address K? I would be lost with out you. You are the most amazing person!! I know for a fact that with that selfless act last night...you saved alot of people from being hurt. You rock!!! I so wish I lived by you...it would be awesome. I look up to you and admire you tons....tell your son that you DO deserve a raise....just because you are you. I will keep your son in prayer, I am sure he will be very careful while he is riding his bike. Well, God has blessed me mightily with your friendship. I always learn good things from you. MY HERO!!!!!!!!!
sounds like it has been quite dramatic while I have taken time out! Occasionally it does get too much here and I think it is probably good to have a few days out now and again.From the replies you have had,it sounds like you have been helpful and selfless. Just remember to look after yourself too. xx
I\'m sorry you had a bad experience on the boards. But remember you help a lot of ppl with your caring nature and support. You have a lot of plusses going for you. I hope your son will take a course on safety aspects....I\'m sure he\'ll be very careful....and get him to wear a helmet.
Healing hugs and love to you xx
She shouldn\'t have put you in that spot in the first place which goes to show you that sucide is a selfish thing! You\'re a wonerful woman for trying to do something to help her; focus on that and not what she said, k?
xo
You aren\'t responsible for other peoples actions. I glad that your staying.
Hugs and Prayers
I am sorry to hear of your bad experience here. I have gone round and round with a \'friend\' who hints at doing away with herself. I finally had to remove myself from her for a while, I just could not take it, it was having its toll on me. I have learned the hard way, you cant save anybody from themselves.Hugs.ps. if you gave your son a motorcycle, you had to know , he was capable of riding it!!![subconsciously]Dont torment yourself with thoughts of his possible harm.love
I\'m 30 and my mum still won\'t allow me to have a motorcycle. She swore to cut off contact if I went for lessons. I want Yvonne as a mum!
Hey beastie babes....I here ya honey!! There are somethings we just cannot avoid....and bad expereinces on here are one of them!!! But...I KNOW you...and know that you have vented about it and that you will be absolutely fine! AS others have said, none of us can be held responsible for others actions. As for your son....you did what you thought was right and you bought your other son a bike too...he is ok...right? Im glad you chose to stay...hell I would miss you!!! HUGE HUGS! x