Human Nature......

Funny how your emotions work...When I sit here alone and its quiet  my mind just starts working and not in a good way,I always go back to the last night with my Giz and that next morning and god I can beat myself up but let me see a posting of someone elses pain and you just step in saying dont feel this or think that , just offer some comforting words to say youre not alone. But when it comes to yourself thats a different story..I will be brutal with myself and say "you killed him, he'd be here today if only you did this or that, and when I try to say otherwise to myself that inner voice comes back with ...dont make excuses...youre the mom, you were supposed to be the one that protected him...wish I could be easier on myself..am sure there are many out there that are just like me ...thats why I come here, people will be honest with their responses and say yup I do that too, just nice to not be judged and people truly care