Hurts
Six days ago, I was abused. It's been six days of crying, six days faking smiles, six days hoping I could die.
Everyone asks me "what is wrong?" And they don't know how much I'm breaking on the inside.
It hurts so badly, I'm marked with his fingers all over my shoulders. I just wanna get off my skin, I don't wanna feel his hands over me anymore. I wanna be able to sleep again, no more nightmares haunting me. I don't wanna be afraid anymore, I don't wanna jump everytime someone tries to be near me.
I just wanna turn the time back and change how things went, and stop blaming myself for what happened. I don't want to feel the pain. I want to stop telling to myself all the "what if's" that could've changed everything.
I just wanna rest in peace.
:(
Everyone asks me "what is wrong?" And they don't know how much I'm breaking on the inside.
It hurts so badly, I'm marked with his fingers all over my shoulders. I just wanna get off my skin, I don't wanna feel his hands over me anymore. I wanna be able to sleep again, no more nightmares haunting me. I don't wanna be afraid anymore, I don't wanna jump everytime someone tries to be near me.
I just wanna turn the time back and change how things went, and stop blaming myself for what happened. I don't want to feel the pain. I want to stop telling to myself all the "what if's" that could've changed everything.
I just wanna rest in peace.
:(
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I\'m sorry, and i understand you not wanting to talk about it any further, but i\'m leaving this message to let you know you can if you want to..
Im so sorry you had to experience something that no-one should ever have to. Its OK to cry - one day you wont need to so much but it will take time. You havent done anything wrong and you are entitled to all sorts of feelings. At some point it might it be possible to find a support group for victims like yourself. Meanwhile try not to blame yourself. Take care!
Thanks for the support!