How to make sense of this hurdle

I know I've encouraged many people along their daily path here. Now I'm struggling to see a way forward for myself with an attempt at a major goal myself or at least conceiving it. Yesterday I wrote to a friend asking what he thought about that fact, as I was reflecting on my life. Since my illness manifested, in a major way, my socializing a natural leaning towards couplehood has fallen by the wayside. I've wondered too that it feels as though I should be doing something with my life. The leap to do it seems huge. I'm inspired by Rich's strength and courage and determination. I suppose talking it out here is helping me find sense to it. Much like my therapist helps me make sense of my life as well. Yesterday was a good day. I find myself feeling confident and satisfied with how I'm spending my weekend. I don't feel lost. There is a tug to make some decisions but perhaps it's important as well to be grateful and recognize my achievements that I've made already.

i guess I'm asking myself if it's ok if this is it? Again I'm grateful. I suppose with any leap forward there has to be some acceptance of dealing with the unknown and so to find something within to hold onto is needed. Perhaps just the reasoning it out will help.