how to feel?

I don't know what I am feeling right now. I think that I may be relaxed but I also think that I am panicked because of the concluding or finalization of the school term. I am kinda confused. Rachael, since she has not been in contact with me I think that she has defriended me on facebook. I simply noticed it. But yet it is irritating me. I attempted at being a friend and she never calls me. Though she was wrapped up in pot and that is something that I am no longer doing. I don't like to go down that row anymore. I also don't want a friend that doesn't call me, check up or attempt to connect on any level. But I cant help but to feel lonely. It was mother's day today and we really didn't do much. Tomorrow is Monday and I have no school but I do have to rehearse with my theatre class for the final.
 
I wish i had a boyfriend. I want someone seclusive to talk to and spend time with. Someone to talk to and listen to, I want to actually spend my life with someone.