how much

How much longer do I have to deal with this
How much farther do I have to go?
How much faster do I have to run
How much farther will i be pushed ,till I fall over the edge
How could I be so thoughtless to start an addiction so hard to break?
How could I miss who I was ,when i really dont know who "I" was?
How do I stop this unbearable sadness that has overtaken my heart and my eyes tonight?
Why the fuck am I being such a dumbass and letting people in? My mother is write I am a stupid bitch and I wont go anywhere. fuck and Im gong to press save too then send.