how low can you go
this is definitely a low day for me. I just want to cry. I know these feelings are rare lately. But when they come it completely knocks me off my balance.
Staying strong is such a hard job sometimes. I don't understand a lot of what is given to me but I try to do what I need to do. It's a little bit daunting that God thinks I have so much strength in me when I don't feel it. But I will persevere one way or the other.
I keep praying for the exass. Let God touch him and make him a better man. Asking too much? I know that God is the only one who can do miracles. I just need to remember that God is fighting someone who has had the devil in him for pretty much most of his life. He proclaims he is a better man but when he pulls these things on me I have strong doubts. it's just another lie.
Please, dear Lord, bring me peace, understanding and incredible strength not to lash out at the one person who I feel is still abusing me. Even if from a distance. Let the courts step in and show him how the law works. If not only for me but as an example for other women who trusted and loved the wrong man.
still trying to S M I L E
Staying strong is such a hard job sometimes. I don't understand a lot of what is given to me but I try to do what I need to do. It's a little bit daunting that God thinks I have so much strength in me when I don't feel it. But I will persevere one way or the other.
I keep praying for the exass. Let God touch him and make him a better man. Asking too much? I know that God is the only one who can do miracles. I just need to remember that God is fighting someone who has had the devil in him for pretty much most of his life. He proclaims he is a better man but when he pulls these things on me I have strong doubts. it's just another lie.
Please, dear Lord, bring me peace, understanding and incredible strength not to lash out at the one person who I feel is still abusing me. Even if from a distance. Let the courts step in and show him how the law works. If not only for me but as an example for other women who trusted and loved the wrong man.
still trying to S M I L E
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This might be a good time to STOP praying for the X and focus on YOURSELF!
I agree with CGK--prayer is great but don\'t lose sight of the fact that your ex is not likely to have some great change come over him and revert to the man you WANT him to be. Pray that God will help you see the man he is NOW and that God will give you the strength to find acceptance and healing. Any type of abuse is terrible. I hope you are seeing a counselor to help heal from that. Sending a big hug!!!
What on earth are you worrying about him for? Your the one who needs the prayers LOL... I agree with the gals. Concentrate on yourself. What\'s got you so whacked out and out of sorts like this?
Hon, he lost that right when he walked out and left you in such horrible pain. The gals are so right. You need to focus on yourself. Pray for him if you want to but you need to put yourself first. hugs
I fully understand this all. For 29+ years I put the family first before me. I grew up putting others first. Very low self esteem. I had an ass cheat on me repeatedly and yet I still pray for a better man. Nuts? yes I guess I am. But can any understand if I was never number 1 for anyone else my whole life how do I make myself number one now? It\'s a process that I have conquered the majority of the time but still slide back down that hill every now and then. This is a \"then\" moment.
You are alright honey. We are here to help you see how wonderful you are