How long is he going to keep this up ?

Practically every single day lately - in one way, or another - he does his best to " push me away ", and separate us as much as possible. How much longer is he going to do this, I wonder ? Is he trying to " make me " say... " Leave " ?

Even if his ultimate goal isn't to have me tell him - " Leave, " at the very least it makes me feel like he can't stand being around me. His latest behaviors / attitude has been eating away at any shred of self-confidence I had left.

Plus, every day he shows me how little respect he has for me. Most of the time he has no clue what true compassion, and caring truly means. 

Sure every " now and then "  he'll do a random nice thing that surprises me. But in order for that to be a true act from his heart, I would think that it should be something he does naturally on a much more regular basis, instead of at random.

The catch 22 to all of this is that talking to him like one " normal " adult to another wouldn't do me any good at all. 

In fact, I could guarantee that trying to talk to him - even quietly, and calmly - would start a full-blown raging fit of an arguement from him ! So it would be pointless, in other words. 

Just last night I made one comment after he " overly " scared me - by throwing a clothes basket into the bathroom doorway - and he started a CRAZY rant ... saying that he would have me " committed " if I ever say that again. When I said he would have to have " proof " to do that, he said he would " record " what I said on his cell phone ! WHAT a load of shit ! HOW dare he talk to me like that ! He took my ONE small comment totally OUT of context, and used it to verbally ABUSE me ! I'm so sick of him talking down to me like that ! 

I wanted to tell him.. " FINE ! Then I'll just NEVER EVER talk to you AGAIN, because every little thing I ever say to you you're going to try to use against me ! " 

But I didn't say that.... because I know all TOO well that it would have only made his already RAGING mood even worse ! I definitely didn't want that ! 

I'm so tired of his Rage, his Negativity, his Moods, his UN-predictability, his Rudeness, his expecting me to laugh at ALL of his dumb, and hateful jokes ! I'm sick and tired of it ALL !!!!! 

Hopefully he'll stay away from me today... " keep his distance " - in other words - in one way, or another... I hope.