How I think things should be

Sometimes I forecast a plan ahead in my day or life. Very often I will see an image to fulfill as the primary guider and not the set of relationships. Sometimes I think nearly unconsciously that I use the example of life scenarios I've seen in Hollywood pictures or TV. These examples tell me how things should be and very often I give up on my life direction for the difference in my own reality.

I have to remind myself about the relationships at hand and pump myself up to be dynamic and flexible and weather any storm along the way. 

I've been thinking about how the Abbess gave me some encouragement to keep a sense of hierarchy in my mind. I interpreted it as the British standard for God, King and country.

That kind of thought just gave a better framework for dealing with a situation better and it stopped me from getting so derailed when the going got tough or bumpy.

Ok that part may seem kind of wacky but what I will say in addition to that is something less conceptual.

When I lay here in bed, getting ready to start the day, I very often start to feel sorry for myself. Not many friends call and my life is very much online. I start to think how things 'ought to be' in my life and again that kind of thought defeats me before I even get started. It's like the mountain to climb in order to change is too much.

What is inspiring now is me encouraging myself not just to think in terms of should be's (to fill a form) but rather giving myself positive self cheering along! And a realistic sense of what the relationships are in front of me so that I diagnose and treat the situation successfully!