How did i get here?

Baby's finally here.  My stbx is staying with me b/c he was evicted.  He's not in love with me and has no desire to reconcile.  And I can't 4 te life of me figure how that even happens; how do u fall out of love with ur spouse and with one as good as me.  I am a good woman.  What scares me is that I know plenty of good women who are single or who have men that are no good for them. 
I really wanted me marriage to be forever.  And I hate the fact that I will now have the title of divorced attached to me. 
My husband seems intent on behaving like a child and other than my love for him I can't think of a reason why I should be married to him.
and soon i won't b.  i have the papers and i can't find any reason for them to not be signed anymore.  I wanted to get a piece of his 401k, but that is becoming less and less important. 
i think id like to start dating.  im not sure if that's the best thing, but its what i wanna do.  doesnt have to be anything deep, i just want some man to appreciate me in a way that my husband just cant.
i wanna move on.
i need to get a divorce to do that.
as long as im still married its adultery.  and i dont need that....ive been noticing other men and viewing them as off limits.
im not sure what ive been holding onto.  hope?
well..... im done.
sad, but done.
it is past time to move on.
oh and im back on weight watchers.  i weigh 249.