Hospitalization One Year Later

A year ago, I checked myself into a psychiatric hospital.  I was at the end and needed to be locked up to stay my hand.  They watched me 24/7 every three minutes to make sure I was still among the living.  My drugs were all screwed up, the anti-depressants were making me worse.  I went in and out of mania but the docs didn't really know what was going - the military PDoc and TDoc don't deal with Bipolar and also rarely PTSD.  My depression was the overriding feature.  They got my drugs sort of right.  I took a year of tweaking to get it more effective.

I think about my time in the hospital, I want to go back daily.  Not sure I understand why.  But, I got better.