Hospitals
Well... it's been a few rough days, even weeks.
Break ups, funerals, and the most recent one... I got a "Hey mr. Hospital, I'm really glad (or not so much) to see you again".
Yeah, I was feeling bad, so I went to the hospital, and tadaaa, ended up being there 3 days...AWFUL, I just hate hospitals...make me so nervous.
But I guess what I hate more, is the reason why I got to be in there...this stupid heart problem... OMG I couldn't stop the tachycardia!! It hurt so bad, my heart. I swear I felt like it was going to stop.
Sometimes I'm afraid of it happening, sometimes not. But this time, I really was. Mainly 'cause in a week my audition for Beauty and the Beast, the musical is next week, but well now my singing teacher doesn't want me to audition. I had something to look for, to make me feel good, I really needed this, but well... I guess I won't have it.
Right now I have to focus on resting, I can't get mad at the moment, I can't feel, if not, my heart gets like crazy, so...not so good idea...
I'll just have to be strong enough.
Break ups, funerals, and the most recent one... I got a "Hey mr. Hospital, I'm really glad (or not so much) to see you again".
Yeah, I was feeling bad, so I went to the hospital, and tadaaa, ended up being there 3 days...AWFUL, I just hate hospitals...make me so nervous.
But I guess what I hate more, is the reason why I got to be in there...this stupid heart problem... OMG I couldn't stop the tachycardia!! It hurt so bad, my heart. I swear I felt like it was going to stop.
Sometimes I'm afraid of it happening, sometimes not. But this time, I really was. Mainly 'cause in a week my audition for Beauty and the Beast, the musical is next week, but well now my singing teacher doesn't want me to audition. I had something to look for, to make me feel good, I really needed this, but well... I guess I won't have it.
Right now I have to focus on resting, I can't get mad at the moment, I can't feel, if not, my heart gets like crazy, so...not so good idea...
I'll just have to be strong enough.
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Do not get mad and anger the heart and make it crazy :| not good...
I\'m sorry about the beauty and the beast audition, they\'ll have to find a new beast now...:P hehe
You woulda been great, but it\'s not the last chance you\'ll get. When you feel better, there will still be musicals left, maybe even better ones...
Rest up, watch some movies, read some books. You\'ll be back and better than ever in a flash x
My heart is already crazy and stressed and weak, and it hurts -.- it\'s horrible lol...
And well yeah, I guess I\'ll have to wait to be the beast... their loss, lol.
I just really wanted to have something to motivate me to be better, to help me through my ED, \'cause you know I can\'t sing good while purging... but well... there\'ll be another chance for me to do it.. I still need to get better so this won\'t happen again.
I guess I do will watch movies, Any movie you recommend?? :)
And study for the exams I missed while I was in the hospital.
:O missed exams :O how shocking...
I can relate actually. My entire 5th year in high school i got straight A\'s in on the preliminaries, then got Mono and missed alll the exams!!! :P lol thanks to my doc and my prelims i still passed everything. And then the following year just decided i had better things to do on the math exam day :) just walked right by my math teacher to like la de da la deeeee daaaaaa :D hello sir how are we today? \"\" hahaha
I\'m sorry about your heart, i love a song called \" How can you mend a broken heart \" ...perhaps the answer is in there...:P
And i recomend...Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind :D
Oh wait?...
Lol, omg! I wouldn\'t be able to just decide not to do an exam, I kind of freak out awfully when I don\'t do them, like noww!!! LOL
Aw that one s a beeautiful song, really really beautiful. One of my daddy\'s favorite. :)
Oh you already recomended that movie to me...
And I did watch it. Lol...
Sorry to hear about your condition. I hope you get better fast and there will be plenty of other auditions in the future for you. As of right now you have to concentrate on your health; that\'s the most important issue you have to keep in check. :-)
I know !!! It\'s so good you should watch it twice...
joke lol erhm lemme see what could you watch....Maybe you could start a new tv show??? Like the new season of arrested development is on netflix, ive watched a couple of them, so far so good : ) what kinda tv shows do you like????
Thanks for the good wishes recovering84 :) I hope you are good too!
Ok, ok I\'ll watch it again lol :P
I\'ve never seen that show, I barely watch tv series, but i\'ll start with it :D
I like whatever that has comedy, fantasy or drama lol :P nothing that could scare me! :)
And you??
awwwwww :P no scary stuff then. Ehrm i dont know, i\'ll watch anything that tells a good story. I\'m in the middle of reading the 3rd Dark Tower book, that\'s fantasy mixed with reality, its great so far. And actually something that i just finished yday, was watching a playthough of a ps3 game believe it or not, called The Last of Us. It took forever to get through, but everyone said i needed to see this story. And i dont have a ps3 to play it, so i watched it on youtube. It\'s not so much the story, but the stories of the characters, a man who lost his daughter and a young girl whos been abandoned by almost everyone, who are forced to trek though a post apocalyptic world together. Sounds kinda cheesy, but it\'s the 1st thing in a long time that really got me.
While i\'ve been typing, my tea has gone cold....Damn you Martha, damn you...
:P