Horrible Akathesia or Anxiety?

I don't know if it was anxiety or akathesia, but today was horrible. Just horrible. I was flailing in bed, my arms and legs like I needed to be restrained. I was like that off and on for most of the day. I woke up like it. I tried watching Geo play a video game, I tried going for a stroll even though it was raining and today was supposed to be my day off from exercise, and I took klonopin even though I really didn't want to. Finally I got Geo to lie down with me and I took enough klonopin to knock me out for a couple hours and I woke up and I was okay. I cooked dinner fine, and then came to the room to be on the computer. It's been a struggle, since I don't want to be on the computer. I don't want to be awake. I just want to be asleep and not wake up until it's time to go to work on Monday, if even then. I haven't been sleeping well at all lately and I don't think that's helping.
I don't have the focus to do this. Food today was good, though. I made sure to eat lunch and had a nice dinner. I had a bunch of egg noodles with cream of mushroom soup and chicken. Lunch was ramen, and I had my peanut butter bagel for breakfast. Mood was horrible, I was depressed and anxious. I should have journaled, but I don't know what I would have said. I don't know what to say now. Just that I don't know what I'm feeling and why I'm feeling it, but that it's horrible. I just want to go to sleep. I think I'm going to do that soon.  

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ann54
ann54

that sounds awful, and im sorry you had to go through that. it seems to much to be akathesis, though i am no doctor, and im not sure it would be anxiety. have you had similar experiences like this before? i think you definetly need to talk to the doctor about this. it can be so overwhelming when things just seem topile up and no end seems in site. yet somehow we get through the days. with all that went on, you did a great job on your eating, kudos!!! your dinner sounds yummy, we used to have that but with tuna. many hugsss
ZECILKL
ZECILKL

Does this happen often? I\'m so sorry to hear you had such a bad day.
It\'s good you tried the walk and came on the computer.