Hoping this mc actually starts

We'll it's almost been a week since I found out that the baby died and over 2 and a half week since it happend. I used to look at the TP hoping not to see red and now I just keep hoping this mc will start and it doesn't.  My RE gave me until tonight so I guest I'll be taking the meds. I don't no what's worst, taking them or having this profound feeling that they won't work like last time.
I guest the good thing this time is that my pregnancy symptoms are all gone. Last summer they kept getting worst, so maybe that's a good sign. I also felt like I had small cramps all afternoon and my legs are killing me.  This often happens to me when AF is about to start. I guest that should give me some hope. Maybe my body is more ready than I think and it will be easier this time around.
I'm staying home from work either way tomorrow.  If my first dose doesn't work I have to do an other one in the am. I ended up telling my boss about my mc and he really is great.  He even called me this morning to tell me I really shouldn't have been on my computer working so late the night before and should just be resting and taking care of myself.
Thank you all for thinking of me.  It really is helping.  So many of you have told me how strong you think I am and I guest I feel like I have to prove you girls right. I've been lucky enough to get pregnant 3 times in the past year, I have to believe it will happend again and that one of them will stick for 9 months.
Hugs
Special thoughts go to Kelly recovering from her cerclage surgery today. I'm sure your angel Abigail is watching over you and this little one to make sure you both make it safely through the 9 months. xoxo

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I know nothing can be said to make this better, but I\'m sending some love to you. I cannot even begin to imagine how you\'re feeling, but maybe there\'s a bigger picture plan for you. The baby you were meant to have will come. I just know it. I know you\'ll appreciate that so much more given how much you\'ve been through to get to it. Will be thinking of you.
cidekmat
cidekmat

huge hugs and my thoughts are sent your way, please do not feel you need to be strong for us, we are here for you we can be strong for you but we all know you will make it through and you will pick yourself up and keep on trucking... the problem with IF is we sometimes become too strong for our own good and not that that is a bad thing but sometimes we need others to be strong for us.... you will pick up you will recover and I know you will get your dream hang in there and know we are all here for you
endowife
endowife

I\'m saying a prayer for you tonight and thinking of you. You are so strong, and it is so nice to hear you are surrounded by sane people, not morons. This too shall pass.
HopefullyWaiting
HopefullyWaiting

You are strong! I\'m so sorry this is happening to you! Your right, soon one will stay for the 9 months! Thinking of you and hoping this part is over soon. Big hugs!!
Kelly0713
Kelly0713

Roxy I hope hope hope and pray pray pray that your body handles this mc and the meds as quickly and healthily and painlessly as possible! I am so glad you have a good boss!

Thanks for the shout out. I am thinking about you too!
Andi60857
Andi60857

You most definitely are a strong lady and you don\'t have to prove it to us, we know! I hope the meds will get things moving along so you can move along! Big hugs! xo
Orriginal
Orriginal

So glad you are taking the day off tomorrow. Hope you recover quickly and comfortably. I am so sorry you\'ve already MCed. If you haven\'t taken the pill before, I had to do it about one month ago so I can tell you what to expect. I found someone that had already used it and asked all about it because I was scared. Thinking about you.
JA0811
JA0811

Glad your boss is so supportive and that you can take the day off tomorrow. So sorry u have to go through this again...thinking of you...
deleted_user
deleted_user

It\'s true you are strong and quite remarkable! I hope that this can all be over for you very soon so you can put it behind you and start afresh. It\'s good to hear you have a good boss they are hard to find, but I expect it just because you are good! Thinking of you
RoxyD
RoxyD

I woke up around 3am and the meds had worked and I started to mc. It was such a relief that they actually worked this time and that maybe this mc wouldn\'t be as complicated as last summer. I\'m sure I\'ll start to realise what\'s happening soon and I\'ll have other emotions but for now, relief and a lot of pain. I also figured that was good because it means my body is doing what it needs to do.
vmarie3
vmarie3

I think of you often, you are so strong and I do hope and pray you get through this as quickly and with as little pain as possible. I have faith that it will also happen and your little one will stick for the 9months xo
deleted_user
deleted_user

Can\'t believe I\'m saying this but I\'m glad the meds worked and the mc started and your healing both physical and emotional can begin. Rest today and take it easy. You will get pregnant again and it will stick. HUGS.
GirlAtHeart
GirlAtHeart

I hope things get going quickly for you because the wait must be so hard. Your boss is a compassionate person.

I guess all of us are strong in waves and moments. I\'d like to think you are strong because you\'ve made the decision to do fertility treatments to begin with. Then, when it didn\'t work last time, you somehow managed to gather the strength to try again.

It\'s okay if you aren\'t strong today. We\'ll be strong for you.
Megs525
Megs525

Gosh, Roxy. Glad the meds worked, but so sorry that you had to deal with this at all (again). Hopefully, this will happen quickly and you\'ll be able to move past it without all the complications you dealt with last summer. Thinking of you...HUGS)
LMWT
LMWT

As much as a MC sucks, I am glad it is happening and it seems like your body is doing what it must. Hopefully it will be over this weekend and not drag on like the one last summer. Thinking of you hun. I hope it goes quickly and with minimal pain. XOXO