HOPE IS DWINDLING WITH EACH PASSING DAY!

FRIENDS, RIGHT NOW I AM SO SELF- ABSORBED AND SELF-CENTERED WITH MY GRIEF THAT I AM NOT BEING A VERY GOOD, SUPPORTIVE FRIEND. I QUICKLY WENT THROUGH SOME OF MY JOURNALS TODAY AND RESPONEDED TO A FEW, ESPECIALLY THOSE IN A WORSE STATE THAN I AM. MY DEPRESSION IS , WELL, YOU CAN IMAGINE. HUBBY IS DOING ALL HE CAN TO CHEER ME UP AND KEEP ME OCCUPIED. FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAVE BEEN VERY SUPPORIVE. AND ALL OF THIS IS WONDERFUL. BUT GOD SEEMS TO HAVE ABANDONED ME FOR SOME REASON...I HAVE PRAYED AND PRAYED FOR HER RETURN BUT HE DOES NOT SEEM TO THINK I NEED AN ANSWER TO THIS. I AM STILL PRAYING WITH THE HOPES THAT HE IS JUST WAITING FOR THE RIGHT TIME. I SURE HOPE IT IS SOON!!! I THINK ABOUT HER 24/7 AND WHEN I SEE ONLY TWO FOOD DISHES PUT DOWN, I CRY. IF I SEE HER FAVORITE TOY..I CRY. AND ON AND ON IT GOES. I AM EXHAUSTED. NEXT WEKK I AM PLACING AN AD WITH A COLORED PHOTO AND A REWARD OF $ 200.00 FOR HER RETURN OR ANY INFO THAT RESULTS IN HER RETURN. I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING ELSE. I AM AT A LOSS!!! PLEASE, CONTINUE YOUR PRAYERS. AND I SO... APRRECIATE YOUR PRAYERS AND POSITIVE, SUPPORTIVE COMMENTS. THANK YOU, MY FRIENDS. A HEART BROKEN, DEBBIE