Homework

Seen my therapist yesterday. She gave me a homework assignment. I need to draw two circles or baskets or something and I need to write the things I want in my life in one basket and things I'm going to let go in the other. I don't know why but I'm dreading this. It sounded really good at the time, to put things in perspective but now I just don't want to do it, don't want to face those things that pull me down I guess. She really hit on some hard points with me and read me like a book.

I put up some major walls to protect myself from hurt, and I know those walls need to go down, but its not easy to trust, its not easy to let go of things. One of the things I wanted to do this year is put the past in the past and move forward instead of getting stuck back there in the hurt. maybe it will all just take alot of time, I don't know. I'm just ready to get on with my life and not get stuck feeling like the victim of so many different things. Time to get the machete out and start chopping away at these things in my way. It's just hard making those first steps and really look at yourself!