Home Safe

I got home safely last night, came home and went straight to bed. I was exhausted. I slept well, and almost rolled out of bed thinking I was still on the air mattress on the floor. Luckily I didn't and got out of bed properly. I ate like crap on the train and had a horrible stomachache. Stupidly, I decided on Taco Bell for dinner and only ate a bit of my nachos before I had to run to the bathroom. I gave the rest to Geo. I'm still tired today and I got a bunch of sleep. It was Geo's dad's birthday today and so we went out to Outback. My stomach was feeling better, so I had a couple small margaritas. I only had a small piece of birthday cake and no ice cream. I gained a bunch of weight on the trip (5 pounds) but I think it's mostly water since on the train I ate a bunch of salty stuff. I will wait for a couple days and see if it comes down. I hope so. I just keep messing up with my diet, and my hips have been hurting me so I haven't been able to walk much. I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. Probably sleep more and catch up with everything online. I took a nap from 6:45pm to 7:45 so I might not go to sleep as early as I wanted to.
I did have a bit of time today when depression came over me. I just wanted to curl up in bed with Geo and cry. I took a bath and that made it a lot better. I can't wait to see my psychiatrist next Thursday. I'm hoping for either a change or increase in my antidepressant. The Haldol is working well... I'm not hallucinating a lot, even the small stuff that was always there. I don't know if I need the Risperdal along with it, as well as the Trazadone. I will have to talk to her about it.