home late again

its 2:55 am.  his phone is dead or turned off.  he got off work @ 11:45 pm.  he sent a message @ 12:10 am.  i havent heard anything since and the ride home shd take approx 1 hr.  i dressd up and created an alterego.  i look beautiful.  if i was my alterego i wld call someone else and invite him over.  but here i sit.  waiting.  wondering if my husband is with his mistress or dead or hurt.  wondering if i care.  im beautiful. reconciliation can only exist where there is repentence.  if reconciliation is not possible then divorce will b necessary.  if infidelity does not end then reconciliation can not happen.