hmmmm
so i started a journal this morning but then had to get off the computer and lost it....
so now its going to be about the entire day lol.
here is what carlos sent me this morning "Good morning, Pisco has the golden Diarhea, meaning he has the ECE, its pretty nasty, anyway I gave him Lax, but as I researched it lasts between 5 to 7 days so hopefully he will be fine again, he is still eating and being active. They also say it may be because of stress, but what can they stress about??? they only sleep poop eat and drink water"
So at first I almost cried with the first sentence. but then ended up laughing! haha stress!!! sorry...its funny.
i have had a GREAT day!!!! have played games today and a lot of laughter. did have a headache but took drugs and its better. had lunch in the cafeteria- got ORANGE SHERBET!!! no one else got it as a dessert but me!! I also had it the other day as well.
got another meal increase today. dietitian said she didnt do it yhesterday, but today i guess my weight went down again so she did it today. bleh.
ummm had a good meeting with Dr Frenkel. I asked him about my progress and timeline. He responded to me saying, well with an intelligent woman like you, i would like you to tell me when you feel you are ready for discharge and then i'll bring it up to your treatment team and we will let you know what we think. I was dumbfounded with what he said and didnt know how to respond.
I then saw my dietitian who gave me the meal increase. I asked her what my weight was doing and what was a realistic time frame for that. I said to her that i was hoping 1 - 1 1/2 weeks. She said she felt that that was very realistic and doable. but obviously we have to wait and see what my weight does. i asked her if she thought that for IP oinly or combiniation of IP and PHP. She said both. I told her that I don't feel doing 12hr PHP is going to be any different than IP. All i do is go home and sleep. It's not like I'm going to do anything at home so what's the point. She said she agreed with that. I told her that i felt that a step down program would work more. Like for a few days have one meal off, then have 2 meals off for a few and then discharge completely and go to my outpaitent team. Ashley said that that could be possible and something i woul dhave to talk to my doctor about.
i have been thinking about that a lot today. And i basically feel that with what i wrote above, would work for me. I am confident that if i did the 12hr php today i would be fine. like i said, there is no difference. So ya...I'm not sure if i should talk to my doctor about that tomorrow, or if i should wait another day. eeeeeek
So this afternoon i had my session with Marisa. She said i have another one tomorrow and she also said that it will be 3 sessions a week. whether they are all individual or if all family or mixed, its still 3 sessions a week. Anyways the session was fine. Near the end she asked me if she could read my journal. what is it with everyone reading my journal?!?!!?!?!?!? i said sure why not. dr frenkel already has. so ya. she then said that she had something else that she wanted to mention that i would be happy about. plans for stepping down to php etc. well....it didn't make me happy. she said that in 1 - 1 1/2 weeks we could start working to step down to php and then 2 weeks there. sorry, did not sit well with me but i kept calm and told her how i felt. Over a month is just too much. So, I told her basically what i said above. I think 2 weeks could be fine, but no more. She then told me that she doesn't think my weight would be up to the goal of 110 for 2 1/2 more weeks. that just pissed me off because this is way longer than me, joanna, or jill thought it would be. plus i dont think the core/underlying issues will really be touched until i go back to joanna. its hard to have a therapist get to know you enough in a quick time to really work on hard core stuff. I guess if its 2 more weeks, i would like to move down to php soon (end of this week perhaps) so that i can have a longer time to work down to an outpatient basis. like full day, then shorter day, then shorter day, then no more.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
um....lastly my roomate that i had before she got sick left today. her parents are bringing her back home. i guess she complained and whined enough to convince her parents to pick her up and leave. now we are down to 8.
so now its going to be about the entire day lol.
here is what carlos sent me this morning "Good morning, Pisco has the golden Diarhea, meaning he has the ECE, its pretty nasty, anyway I gave him Lax, but as I researched it lasts between 5 to 7 days so hopefully he will be fine again, he is still eating and being active. They also say it may be because of stress, but what can they stress about??? they only sleep poop eat and drink water"
So at first I almost cried with the first sentence. but then ended up laughing! haha stress!!! sorry...its funny.
i have had a GREAT day!!!! have played games today and a lot of laughter. did have a headache but took drugs and its better. had lunch in the cafeteria- got ORANGE SHERBET!!! no one else got it as a dessert but me!! I also had it the other day as well.
got another meal increase today. dietitian said she didnt do it yhesterday, but today i guess my weight went down again so she did it today. bleh.
ummm had a good meeting with Dr Frenkel. I asked him about my progress and timeline. He responded to me saying, well with an intelligent woman like you, i would like you to tell me when you feel you are ready for discharge and then i'll bring it up to your treatment team and we will let you know what we think. I was dumbfounded with what he said and didnt know how to respond.
I then saw my dietitian who gave me the meal increase. I asked her what my weight was doing and what was a realistic time frame for that. I said to her that i was hoping 1 - 1 1/2 weeks. She said she felt that that was very realistic and doable. but obviously we have to wait and see what my weight does. i asked her if she thought that for IP oinly or combiniation of IP and PHP. She said both. I told her that I don't feel doing 12hr PHP is going to be any different than IP. All i do is go home and sleep. It's not like I'm going to do anything at home so what's the point. She said she agreed with that. I told her that i felt that a step down program would work more. Like for a few days have one meal off, then have 2 meals off for a few and then discharge completely and go to my outpaitent team. Ashley said that that could be possible and something i woul dhave to talk to my doctor about.
i have been thinking about that a lot today. And i basically feel that with what i wrote above, would work for me. I am confident that if i did the 12hr php today i would be fine. like i said, there is no difference. So ya...I'm not sure if i should talk to my doctor about that tomorrow, or if i should wait another day. eeeeeek
So this afternoon i had my session with Marisa. She said i have another one tomorrow and she also said that it will be 3 sessions a week. whether they are all individual or if all family or mixed, its still 3 sessions a week. Anyways the session was fine. Near the end she asked me if she could read my journal. what is it with everyone reading my journal?!?!!?!?!?!? i said sure why not. dr frenkel already has. so ya. she then said that she had something else that she wanted to mention that i would be happy about. plans for stepping down to php etc. well....it didn't make me happy. she said that in 1 - 1 1/2 weeks we could start working to step down to php and then 2 weeks there. sorry, did not sit well with me but i kept calm and told her how i felt. Over a month is just too much. So, I told her basically what i said above. I think 2 weeks could be fine, but no more. She then told me that she doesn't think my weight would be up to the goal of 110 for 2 1/2 more weeks. that just pissed me off because this is way longer than me, joanna, or jill thought it would be. plus i dont think the core/underlying issues will really be touched until i go back to joanna. its hard to have a therapist get to know you enough in a quick time to really work on hard core stuff. I guess if its 2 more weeks, i would like to move down to php soon (end of this week perhaps) so that i can have a longer time to work down to an outpatient basis. like full day, then shorter day, then shorter day, then no more.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
um....lastly my roomate that i had before she got sick left today. her parents are bringing her back home. i guess she complained and whined enough to convince her parents to pick her up and leave. now we are down to 8.
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Golden diarrhia, is that a special kind of diarrhia like are they pooping goldcoins? Just kidding hope they feel better soon.
Very interesting answer from your doctor but also very vague. I hate when they play games like that. I like to get a straight answer - good or bad- no bullshitting around. Sorry about the increase that sucks. Have you ever had rasberry sherbet - it\'s the best.
i haven\'t! I\'ll have to track some down!
Ya I\'m so frustrated with the answers. plus the fact that ashley (my dietitian) said 1 to 1 1/2 weeks is doable and marisa (SW) said I won\'t make my weight goal for at least 2 1/2 weeks. AHHH. Well I\'m going to tell Frenkel all that I thought about and wrote tomorrow morning and then i\'ll see i guess. they\'ll probably talk about it at treatment planning tomorrow so i\'ll probably know something a little more at my session with marisa. i hope.
I would think your dietician would know more about when you make weight than your SW.