Hiatus till Memorial Day

“If you live long enough, you'll make mistakes. But if you learn from them, you'll be a better person. It's how you handle adversity, not how it affects you. The main thing is never quit, never quit, never quit.” - Bill Clinton
 
Wow. Did I just type "Hiatus Till Memorial Day"? I can't believe my confession and breakup happened on the saddest holiday of the year. Gosh, I really didn't think that through. Now every Memorial Day I will be reminded of this. But my hope is that 6 months from now, I am in a better state, that I love myself, that I forgive myself, and that I find other avenues to happiness in life.
This forum has been a great source of support. But lately, the continuous reading of people destroying their marriage with affairs and reading about breakups and divorces that don't even involve infidelity or money...well has been pretty depressing. It makes me lose hope in myself and future relationships. It makes me feel like I deserve to suffer right now, and that my ex did right to leave me because I'm an asshole. for cheating. 
But  don't really think it's helpful to read that stuff everyday because I am feeding myself the same negative thought pattern. This time I will truly take a break and explore life outside the web a little bit more. I can't wait to read back on all my journal entries to reflect how far I've come. Tootalou!