Here it comes again :(

I can feel myself sinking.  I thought about a silly wig I found in the laundry room a few days ago, and couldn't help but wonder if my wife had bought it to hide her identity when she would chat with her internet boyfriend.  Now I am sitting in the office where we both work and can feel myself getting sick to my stomach.  Everything bothers me...  every word, every action, everything that was different about this man from me.  Everything here is a trigger :(  I need to get out.