here i am

i could probably write a novel. but it would take a ton of editing since i am horrible with punctuation.  as i sit in my room this morning wondering what the day will bring i am scared.  petrified, i just want to run away.  my daughter is going to be in trouble when she comes home if i have a say, but thats the problem, i dont have a say.  no matter what i say i am at fault i am at a moral dilemma.  do i continue down the road i am on, the road i think is right, or do i succeed to the things my wife does and let it go and let it just fester.   i have so many emotions going through me right now about my past, my present, my future.  i dont have a clue what to do, for my own sanity, i think i should sit back and do nothing like they all want me to, but i cant seem to do it.  my wife seems to beleive i went to get smart with my daughter because she did not do something she was supposed to earlier, but i did not, she went to sleep at her friends and said she was going swimming with them tomorrow. i wasnt sure if it was at her friends aunts house or a public pool that might be far away. so i went up to the house to remind her that her counselor was coming at 3:30. so she cant expect her friends mom to leave and bring her home if it was to a pool far away, before i got a chance to finish my sentence she began the smart mouth, i let it go not to make a scene, but i am so furious about it i dont know what to do.  i tried to explain it to my wife, who thinks i was on a witchhunt, when i was not, i thought i made my wife understand but before she went to work, she made a comment that made me think otherwise.  My wife has worked midnights for 7 years.  when i am home on days my wife is sleeping, i always make sure my kids try and be quiet, after 7 years, you would think she would know, but no, constantly being loud and going in and waking up her mother. 
 
when we tell her to clean up, she stacks everything up and hides it, after countless numbers of times of telling her she cant do it.  you would think she would learn, my wife said she understood, why finally i got upset with her. but then left and made a smart comment to me. so today i sit and comtemplate, not only the events of last weekend but what is going to happen today at my  house.  sometimes i just wanna curl up in a ball and never be seen