Help me.....
I feel so alone in this world. I am so lonely, yet I hate everyone! I don't feel like I am worth everything that I put others through. My best friend is depressed, because for a month or so I made her life hell(not on purpose). I love her more than anything, and it's killing me that I did this to her. She has had to talk me out of killing myself, disiplined me for cutting, and tried to deal with my random spurts of depression. She is the closest thing I have to a sister and I can't bare to lose her to depression.
I can't find happiness in the things that I loved before. I just sit in my bed and read. I don't eat unless someone makes me. I don't want to go socialize with people unless I absolutely have to. (School, friend's house, parents' friends) I cant even find enjoyment in music. I cut myself almost every night on my legs, and can barely walk in the morning cuz they hurt so much. I can't go on like this! I have lost about 15 lbs because I dont eat anything and dont do anything! The only thing that makes me happy is going on tumblr or omegle, and my parents have taken them away fromme! I just need help.
I can't find happiness in the things that I loved before. I just sit in my bed and read. I don't eat unless someone makes me. I don't want to go socialize with people unless I absolutely have to. (School, friend's house, parents' friends) I cant even find enjoyment in music. I cut myself almost every night on my legs, and can barely walk in the morning cuz they hurt so much. I can't go on like this! I have lost about 15 lbs because I dont eat anything and dont do anything! The only thing that makes me happy is going on tumblr or omegle, and my parents have taken them away fromme! I just need help.
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You sound exactly like I was when I was 16 and I ended up in the mental hospital. I hope that you can start to heal so this doesn\'t happen to you. I have lost 2 friends and a cousin to suicide and I can tell you, it is the worst feeling- you don\'t want to do that to your friends and family. If you ever need to talk, I\'m here for you. I haven\'t cut in 1 year and it feels amazing. :)