Heavy Heart Today

Today I had to watch another mother and father lay their child to rest. One of John's friends from way back was shot and killed on Friday. Jamie was only 46. Jamie was messed up from one end to the other. He never grew out of the parting phase of his life. Meth you name it. The man who shot him was his girlfriends daddy. He was protecting his daughter as Jamie was abusing her. Just a heart breaking story. I sat in the same chapel as I did almost five years ago. Watching his poor mother. I just wanted to hug her. As the paul bearers carried him out I lost it. I know my poor husband thought I had lost my mind. I my heart hurt so much for me, John, Jamie's parnets and the list goes on. We went to the grave side. He is buried only a few steps from Josh. When it came our turn in line to speak to the family I wrapped my arms around this woman and told her I understand I am a greiving mama also. We just hugged.

Mama update surgery was cancelled again due to something with her back. Well if everything goes OK the heart will be taken care of on October 5th. The day before Josh's birthday.

Love you all