Heaviness of soul and spirit is really hitting me hard

The heaviness of my soul and spirit for my loss of Smokey (Al) is really hitting me hard today.  It has been almost been three months now.  It is hard to express yourself to someone who has not had a loss of a dear one in their own life.  They don't understand.  It's nice to talk to someone who is or has experienced the loss of a loved one.  They understand.  I love Daily Strength to share with others who have or has experienced a loss.  The journals are helpful no matter day or night you can write down what you are experiencing.  I think I would go absolutely crazy without it.  It is one of my saving graces going thru this horrible time in my life.  I loved Smokey so very much.  He loved me so very much.  We were soul mates.  My life is utterly empty without Smokey in my life.  It's hard to go on without him.  At times, life seems so unbearable.  It's how I feel.