Heaven or Las Vegas..
I love my job. Don't get me wrong. I have the responsibility to watch over two counties while everyone in them sleeps soundly. Dispatchers are often called the "Unsung Heroes" of law enforcement. No one really thinks of us when they think of protection. Cops and firefighters get all that glory, which is totally okay with me. For 40 hours a week I sit here and I wait. I wait for tragedy. I wait for someone to need help. People don't call 911 just to say "Hey", or order a pizza. That's not what it's for. Often times I'm the first voice a person hears in what could be the most traumatic event in their life. That kind of responsibility doesn't weigh on me. I feel the best when I have a task. The problem is that I dispatch for a town of 2500 people. The calls are few and far between. Which is fantastic! That means that trouble isn't hitting this town at the rate of larger cities. I spend my time reading or doing homework or watching T.V., or this. I really shouldn't complain. I get paid good money with good benefits at a job that I barely do anything, but that's just now how I am. Lately, I haven't been feeling utilized at work. I was lucky to be blessed with a certain charisma and set of skills that makes me perfect for office jobs. I don't want to travel. I like office work and sitting on my ass. I've worked here almost two years now and I've asked for more responsibility, and they've given more duties to the girl that's been here 6 months than me. I just sit here for 8 hours, then leave. I never leave feeling productive. Unless someone about dies. Then I'm useful. Which is a weird feeling for someone to get used to. My heart hurts because there are things I want out of a career. Money isn't one of them. I want pride in my work. I want respect. I love this job, but it's not satisfying me. I've chose this job over family. Over friends. Over significant others. I just wish that it'd be worth it..
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This is awesome and I respect you for what you do. I worked as a corrections officer and loved my job until I was forced to leave the state to avoid an abusive situation. I understand what you mean too. I was there for 9 months and a female who came in got more training in areas I\'ve been asking and asking for. It\'s unfair to boot. Don\'t give up! You should have great pride in the work you do, it\'s not easy. Keep up the amazing work and stay strong, something has always got to give!
Thanks! :) Words of encouragement are always appreciated.