Heat Broken

 I still can't believe this happened. Sometimes I find myself feeling angry. I woke up this morning hoping this was all just a bad dream, only to realize it's not. My heart hurts. I cried again today. Yesterday I got the chance to go to the hospital and say my goodbyes. They took me into the room where I held his hand and told him I loved him, gave him a kiss on his forehead and then I just broke down. My parents had to help me walk out. When I left I went for a drive and ended up at the cemetery, I went to go see my aunt. It gave me comfort to know that Mikey was in his moms arms once again! I told them to watch over us and help us through this. His funeral is set for Wednesday, I'm already stressed about it. Mostly because of my agoraphobia. I'm going to have to sit in a room full of people but what's even worse is that I'll be attending Mikey's funeral. 
Anyways, I'm going to watch The Age of Adaline. I'm hungry but I don't feel like making anything so I probably wont. And then my fave part of the day...Sleep!!