HEARTBROKEN

nothing seems important anymore.i want to make joshua proud, but i dont have the strength to get up anymore.ive lost 15 pounds already, and its still dropping rapidly. thats an extra 6 pounds i lost prior to being pregnant.food is disgusting to me, i cant force myself to eat more than a granola bar.my hands wont stop shaking, i cant stand without being dizzy.it feels like im slowly dying inside. i just want to be with josh right now, no matter how selfish that sounds.