Heart broken

I lost the love of my life on 11 December 2016. He was diagnosed with non Hodgkin's lymphoma in June 2016. By all accounts he was beating this horrible decease. Gone through chemo and all seemed well. I took him to the hospital for a cough and 3 weeks later, my husband was no more. I am shuttered. I never imagined I would have to go through life without my love at 41. This hurts so bad. I miss him terribly