heart ache
Today is the 2nd day of the New Year. Some have made New years resolution...I used to, but every time I'd fail within 2 weeks. I know I should make some hopeful satement. My heart is aching. I feel like I've been depressed all my life and I do not knowwhat God wants me to do with it! I truley believe that Iwill take this decease to my grave. There seems to be more work in my life andless joy. I pray for the joy of the Lord but I feel like He doesn't care. I wish God would show up
I'm weak, unwilling , having a pitty party,confused, fearful, lazy and I feel physicallt sick, Mentally ill, have stomach ache all time. God I'msorry for failing you. I'm in such dept of miserable!. It's too hard to put words to it.
I'm weak, unwilling , having a pitty party,confused, fearful, lazy and I feel physicallt sick, Mentally ill, have stomach ache all time. God I'msorry for failing you. I'm in such dept of miserable!. It's too hard to put words to it.
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Jessica I think you are putting too much pressure on yourself. I wouldn\'t be too concerned about a new year\'s resolution. Simply try to take care of yourself and not be too hard on yourself. If you want to talk, I am I good listener.
It has been such a long time since I last wrote. I\'m sorry to my friends.We have been processing our abuse issues and nobody felt safe to communicate. It\'s now June. My son joined the Army and is deployed, my daughter finished her masters degree and is moving abroad. We all have been struggling with the empty nest syndrom. We are so confused and feeling abandond. I have to work really hard not to go into the spirit world and see the demons. I know the Bible talks about thinking on good things. So I try to rerout my train of thoughts. It\'s hard for all of us to over come the fear. So I silence the voices by being kind to everyone. I haven\'t cut in months, which is very good. I haven\'t been this kind to myself ever ! But this is the first time in my life that I do not know what to do with myself. So I feel useless. :(