Healing

So I struggled alot, and i know I'll probably struggle more, but for now I'm doing well for the first time in a year the bad thoughts have gone, yes I still get stressed about the wedding ( but weddings r stressful with out the Corona thing) but the urge to burn everything is fading. I'm happen with my bridal party and I'm glad I changed it all up. For once in a long time I'm looking forward to my wedding and I'm glad I had to postpone it to August cause of the fact that I'm in a better place mentally, yes I'm worried that it might be too hot but I get to marry my best friend. So it will be worth it.