Healing

Today, I feel the possibility of healing. This is a first in this journey. I don't think I will ever be the same, but who is from one day to the next? There are some aspects of me that I would like to change. How I cope, how I live, how I relax. I can make some better choices for me. This is the first time I've been alone in 24 years. It's quiet. I've adjusted. Now, it's time to heal. I know that part of healing is painful. I know it takes time. But, the prospect is there. My heart is open to it. I can look to the horizon and know that the sun will set and rise again in the morning. I know that I can get better, I can cope, I can relax, I can heal.
This is new to me. Gone is the feeling of how unfair. Gone is feeling cheated. Gone is the past and what I had.... But, I will embrace the present and every opportunity to breathe, heal and grow. Scars will form. But, like the stretch marks from childbirth, they will be a reminder of something wonderful. A badge of honor to protect me and remind me what a wonderful love we shared. Very much like the love God has for me, Mike really loved me and I loved him.
Grateful for what I had, what I have and what is to come. There really is a future ahead of me.